Dragon Says...

There are a few cool people here, but for the most part, people who I thought were friends just don't want anything to do with me. I text them and they don't answer or answer with something noncommittal and when asked about it, then they don't answer. I'm just too boring, I guess. It should get better when I have a fursuit, but until then, cons just suck.

I'll probably be cleaning up my friends list a tad after this con.

1. God, this con is so boring.
2. Most friends are not interested in hanging out with me at all.
3. Lol there's a group I like to call the faildragons.
4. Just because you are a very good artist, does not mean you are an interesting person to visit with.
5. Doesn't seem to matter if I have a person's phone number. They don't answer or make up BS excuses.
6. I don't drink or dance. Those two seem to be mandatory if you want to socialize with furries.
7. I really can't wait until I have a suit. I think that will change the dynamic somewhat. I'm somebody!
8. Furries are gross.

I'm here. Courtyard room 631. AIM me or call me if you want to do stuff.

HEY BITCHES ASK ME SHIT

I'm here... no room to hide in

Go vote for this shirt, and tell others to vote.
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Woohoo! I'm going to AC!

To those I've already spoken to about a room: You can get in, but you have to abide by the rules I set at FCN: Pay up front, cash, or no stay. You have to pay up front for the full duration of the time you expect to stay. I've got a room at the Courtyard (which may be more conveniently located than a 30 minute elevator ride down from the Westin's higher floors) with 2 queen beds, Wednesday the 1st through Monday the 6th. It'll be $40 to sleep in a bed and $30 for the floor.

Also don't forget that a month ahead of that, I'll be at Califur!

Somebody meet me and grope me at one of these cons... >_>

Man... I know some people who are nice people, but their foibles are so obvious and pitiful, that it is fun to poke fun at them mercilessly. :D

So Dumbfuck Incorporated is finally "reshipping" my camera. Supposedly the first one was shipped and lost by UPS and the claim just closed today, but looking at the tracking I only see "Billing Information Received." Usually that means the label was created but the package was never given to UPS. Apparently that was enough to open a tracer and they claim that UPS paid the claim on the package.

I think this seller has discovered a new way to scam UPS! I will probably call UPS tomorrow (while I'm pretending to work) and see if I can trick them into telling me whether they actually paid the claim or not. The seller may just be lying about that to cover their disorganized shipping ways. I paid for the fucking camera on April 12th. One thing's for sure: I'm going to neg the ass out of this seller. I might give them a chance to offer some kind of compensation first. I wonder what I should ask for? Maybe $100 back?

I'll wait to make sure they don't send me a Sorny or pull some other shit like that. This is a reminder that you should always, always shop with a credit card online.

Those of you who truly know me (not many of you) know that I'm a dominant personality - not just in bed but everywhere. My way or the highway.

Some people decided that I was not worth a few moments of their time at FCN, even after acting very interested to meet me beforehand. I don't need people like that in my life. I will spend time with people who make it worth my while and engage me. The others will find themselves removed from my friend/contact lists.

Some people view me as a pervert who is only interested in sex. It's a shame that you have rushed to that conclusion, especially since all of the people involved made advances on me FIRST. I regret that you have mistaken my reciprocating in kind as the actions of a slut. You can be assured that in the future I will not be receptive to your advances, lest these accusations continue. Why would I reward someone who does this?

And to the person who made a practical joke of me: I am not laughing. You should be glad I am not (usually) a violent person. It will be best for both of us if we never speak again.

To the small, small number of people who did what they could to make FCN a better con for me, I thank you. I hope to see you again. You will get more of my attention in the future. Those to whom I felt more like a fanboy, not so much.

At future meets and social encounters in general I will just have to be a little bit less patient. If I am not involved in the conversation, what use is there in staying around? I don't live by watching other people talk to one another - I'm either involved or I'm leaving.

If you see me leave a group like this, don't take it personally.

On second thought, go ahead and take it personally.

Fuck this shit.

I should cut my dick and balls off. One of two things will happen that will improve my situation:

1. I won't be such a despicable pervert always looking for sex.
2. I'll fuck up and kill myself.

It really sucks to be such a horny person. I wanna get laid... lots.

FCN really, really didn't help. It's like a recovering alcoholic getting a couple tiny sips of the sauce.

Heh, sauce.

Somebody.... screw meee...

Well, somebody male.

Is this a good time to re-mention that I'll be at Califur?

I just woke up after a nap, which almost immediately followed my first meal resembling food (broccoli cheddar Panera soup with a little bread) at about 8:00.

The good news: I no longer feel like I have a jagged metal Krusty-O inside my stomach, for the first time. I think I might actually be done V&Ding.

The bad news: It's fucking 4:00 AM on Sunday. I'm leaving in about 16 hours. What are the odds I will even get a little quality time with the people I came to see? Let alone do anything naughty.

What a fucking horrible con. What a waste of my damn money. I don't even have enough people to pay for the room anymore because half of them left due to my germs.

This is why I can't have nice things...

( All the gory details )

FCN is off to a horrible start for me. It's had its up moments but the down moments outweigh those, so let's focus on that for now:

1. I have a nasty cold that has been around since about Tuesday. I'm still experiencing the nasal congestion/drip plus chapped skin on my nose from the Kleenex.
2. A few people that acted interested to see me before the con have not been looking for me, and when I found them they scampered off. They are busy hanging out with other, more interesting/attractive people.
3. And tonight, the worst diarrhea and vomiting I've experienced in over 10 years.
4. And because everyone knows about 1 and 3, nobody will want to screw with me at this con.

I'm here, room 325.

Fuck $10 a night internet. I can just use Tetherbot. :D

Just booked it, I will be at Califur.

So apparently a group (not just one person, but a group) has attained and is spreading allegations about me that aren't true. I'm getting a notoriety that I don't deserve.

I don't appreicate having things said about me that aren't true, and people jumping to conclusions and claiming to be able to judge someone's character after knowing the person for one day.

I've deleted some posts that were being used as ammunition against me. I'm sorry, I thought I was being friendly. No good deed goes unpunished.

I have decided that I want this con to improve my social success rate. I have always done a terrible job of being social at cons, and I want this one to change it. There's not much programming I give a crap about, so I'll have a lot of time to spend out and about.

One thing I need to do is make myself interesting. If any of you think there's anything about me at all that people would find interesting - what is it?

This is getting tiresome. I don't go looking for drama, but it always finds me.

Here's the situation I'm stuck in. I'm just going to lay down all my cards. I'll change the names but I think the parties will probably know who they are.

So person A, who I consider a good friend, has some kind of bad encounter with person B, who I also consider a good friend. Neither of them will tell me what happened, so I'm completely in the dark about the situtation. It has developed into a situation where person A has developed a mentality of "a friend of my enemy is my enemy," and put it into practice. Introduce person C, whose relationships with the others involved is something I'm not sure of, but I don't believe it's a very sincere, devoted friendship in any case just because of the type of person C is. However person A and person C end up near each other and drama ensues. Person A seemingly considers person C an enemy for the reason specified above. (Side note: I don't particularly care for person C myself, only because I do not consider him a sincere friend and person C has expressed no interest in being a real friend to me at all - which is the reason a lot of certain people have lost my favor recently, not so much drama as a lack of sincere interest in being my friend.)

So person C demands clarification, and person A talks to person C in private about it. When they are finished neither of them speak of it again. I feel left in the dark, because person A will explain what's going on to person C, an enemy, but won't tell me, a friend. I don't deserve to be told the truth, apparently. Person B won't even tell me the details, not even to defend himself. It's very puzzling.

From the information I have been given, I am left to draw my own conclusions without knowing the real meat of the story. The way it appears to me is that person A is overreacting to something, and person B is loath to continue to remind person A that person A is overreacting. Person A continues to overreact, out of control, until the situation reaches the boiling point. That's my guess from what I've been allowed to observe.

I'm not pissed off at anyone, I don't hate anyone, I just feel like venting some frustration here. I really want people to just get along and be civil (they don't have to be friends, that's different). I think that a lot more transparency and communication will solve a lot of problems. Keeping things secret is what really makes people nasty and spiteful. The things people don't know are what lead them to assume and draw conclusions as I'm finding myself doing now. It might be better that I not know, but I can't make that call because I don't know what I don't know. That's so rarely the case, though, that I doubt it. It just makes me feel on the outside of the situation, which makes it really weird when persons A and B vent at me about it expecting a sympathetic ear. Frankly, I'm through being sympathetic about a situation that I am forbidden to hear. When it's declassified, I'll consider giving half a shit about your problems. Until then, the doctor is out.